I read a quote somewhere online the other day that said something like, "Gardening is cheaper than therapy. Plus, you get tomatoes." It made me laugh, because, truly, that's a good summation of my first year gardening.
We had
just moved to Houston from Boston, and as I lamented with true disgust the Houston summer heat, my friend, Courtney, told me to plant a garden. "That way, you'll appreciate Houston's long growing season," she said. For some reason, the idea of gardening took hold, and Nathan and I went to town learning about it. In the end, we had put a whole lot of work into the little plot that we worked that summer, even though we were only in that house a year. All that work building a bed, hoeing and amending the soil, weeding, carefully choosing plants and sowing seeds, anguishing over exactly where to place something so that it got the optimal amount of sun, and so on, was still very much worth it.
Because it really was therapeutic for me. Awakening to the wonder of how a huge plant can grow from a tiny seed. Walking out into the garden in the morning and feeling a thrill to see what has sprouted or how a tomato I've had my eye on has ripened. Feeling the sun warming my hair as I pull weeds. Finding another spot to squeeze in just one more plant. Listening to the birds sing. Dew on the grass. The first tiny vegetable forming. Breezes. Quiet.
Quiet.
The quiet. The swapping-the-craziness-of-a-house-full-of-small-children-for-birdsong kind of quiet. Putting the demands of a full life on hold while I crouch down, smell the soil as I pull a weed, feel a breeze, feel myself breathe.
In that period, when I felt my most crazed and chaotic and hectic, gardening was a welcome new hobby. And, yes, quite therapeutic.